last night bailey and i went to go see The Last Kiss-- zach braff's newest creation. we've been planning on seeing it since we first saw the trailer back in june sometime. so it was finally good to go, and just to spend a little time alone with her. i feel like even though we're finally together in the same city we don't actually have much opportunity to see each other.
as much as i want to be with someone right now, after seeing that movie, i'd rather be single. it seemed like every couple in the movie was going through a crisis. and everyone just ended up being hurt-- save for zach braff's character (michael) at the end of the movie, who is only taken back after spending days on end sitting on the front porch. i guess being in a relationship is a win/lose situation. i'm sure when it's good it's grand, but when it's bad it can be horrible. and getting so close to someone only to have them hurt you, or even, if you hurt them is not something to look forward to. but it's a part of life.
i've been awake for nearly 45 minutes already. i woke up gasping for air. i'm ready to not be sick anymore. since i've been up i've been looking through old photos and listening to the same song on repeat. i can't believe it's been over a year since i first left for germany. a huge part of me wishes that i was still there. but i am definitely glad to be back here. i love berlin so much. sometimes in my dreams i can vividly picture the city, the subway, and the streets in my mind as if i never left. the city will forever be a part of me. and for that, i am most grateful.
as much as i want to be with someone right now, after seeing that movie, i'd rather be single. it seemed like every couple in the movie was going through a crisis. and everyone just ended up being hurt-- save for zach braff's character (michael) at the end of the movie, who is only taken back after spending days on end sitting on the front porch. i guess being in a relationship is a win/lose situation. i'm sure when it's good it's grand, but when it's bad it can be horrible. and getting so close to someone only to have them hurt you, or even, if you hurt them is not something to look forward to. but it's a part of life.
i've been awake for nearly 45 minutes already. i woke up gasping for air. i'm ready to not be sick anymore. since i've been up i've been looking through old photos and listening to the same song on repeat. i can't believe it's been over a year since i first left for germany. a huge part of me wishes that i was still there. but i am definitely glad to be back here. i love berlin so much. sometimes in my dreams i can vividly picture the city, the subway, and the streets in my mind as if i never left. the city will forever be a part of me. and for that, i am most grateful.
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the last kiss was great, but i understand how it could be depressing. life is interesting in many ways. we want, we desire, we need, and then suddenly we'd really just like it all to be gone, done, over. more simple. it's strange how nobody, it seems, is ever quite content.
as for your reminiscing of berlin...music, pictures, people, places, seasons...they all just make us nostalgic for something we'll never go back to. it both happy and sad. it's nice that you can look back on your experience in berlin and find the good in it, but i'm glad you didn't stay there and that you're here in the cities. berlin was too far away. let's shoot for a spectacular autumn, no matter how gray and depressing it may be.