i'm living a life i never envisioned for myself.

listening to the beautiful guitar of josé gonzalez on a sunday night with the cool breeze blowing through the sun room window is almost like drinking a cold glass of lemonade. this has been a ridiculously good and bad weekend.

i've come to grips with the fact that i am an independent person. years ago i would rely on people if i ever wanted to do anything. now that i'm older i'm not so apprehensive. it feels good to just wake up and go somewhere without feeling lonely. i guess that can be said about my life in general. i don't feel lonely anymore.

since people have been graduating in the last couple of weeks, i've really started thinking about life after college. granted, it may be a year and a half away, but it's something that is now constantly in the back of my mind. i went home a couple weeks ago and my parents asked me what i am planning to do after school. honestly, i have no idea. on tuesday i have an informational interview at a design firm in edina. it will be my first, and hopefully one of several. ideally i would love to stay in minneapolis and work at a firm in town. denver, chicago, san francisco and boston are all possibilities as well. i'm interested to see where i'll end and what i'll be doing.

i can honestly say that i have never been more excited for the future.