i've been thinking about a lot of things since getting back home this afternoon. so much so that it's now 1:18am and my mind is going crazy.
1. i think i've outgrown my family. it's fine talking to them on the phone, but in real life i question how i ever grew up in this family. from the way they talk to the way they eat, and especially the music they listen to, it all drove me crazy today. no one is like me. i bear no striking resemblance to anyone in my nuclear family. i have much better taste in music than anyone. (the ride home from the airport consisted of heavy rock and country.) i whipped out my ipod as soon as the wheels started rolling.
2. my family really isn't a family anymore. my sister lives an hour away; i'm five and half hours away. my brother will continue to leech of my mother for who knows how long. i can count the number of times we are all together in a year (most likely) on my two hands. is that weird? i think that's weird. i feel like i'm going to be the only child with a real career. and as a result, i feel like i'll become even more of an outsider.
3. my sister is moving in with her boyfriend this weekend. he's smitten with her; her equally so with him. my family approves. he's a nice guy. i'm 90% sure that they'll get married at some point down the road. and here i am: still single. i'm fine with that i guess. but it'll be weird when the day comes that i'm attending my sister's wedding. i don't see myself marrying for at least another decade, if not longer.
4. my dad is getting remarried this weekend...to a woman i don't really know all that well. i guess i have excuses-- i've been out of state and abroad the entirety of their relationship. she's a nice enough lady and i approve. but it's kind of weird, isn't it? i hardly know my stepmom.
5. stefanie and i saw on old yearbook staff member tonight. she greeted stefanie with a warm smile and a salutation. i got nothin'. it was always a personal goal of mine to say hi to people after high school. for the most part i've been pretty good about it. but most times people don't say hi to me. people think it's because i've changed a lot. that might be the case, but part of me is afraid that i'm not approachable. i was nice in high school! we'll go with the dramatic weight loss.
6. friends are great. i saw stefanie tonight for the first time in eleven months...and it was like we just saw each other a couple weeks ago. so much to catch up on. she's leaving for illinois tomorrow morning and i won't see her again until a group visit sometime this fall. but that is what true friendship is all about.
7. my brother apparently takes it upon himself to house his friends in my room. i will admit, it makes sense since i have two beds. but i also have my belongings in here. and private stuff that i don't want people touching. i wouldn't go through his room if he moved out of the house; i don't smoke pot.
8. i know i'll be a good designer. i just know it.
9. i can't live anywhere smaller than the Twin Cities. i never had the mindset of staying there after college, but now that i've been here for the summer i adore mpls and could easily see myself staying there for a while...assuming that i find a good job. otherwise i'll probably move out to the east coast.
10. on my flight home this afternoon i ended up sitting next to some guys from an investment firm in phoenix. and they were the most annoying "men" i have ever seen; basically 35-year old frat boys. what is their appeal? they're annoying and irresponsible, yet women desire them? i don't get it. what about tall, slim graphic designer men? we're sexy too, damn it.
11. i saw the most emo chick ever on my flight today. dyed red hair with black tips. gallons of mascara on. a ripped shirt with skulls and cross bones. the standard lip ring and a tube of brown lip balm. (brown? is that emo?) what struck me as odd was the fact that she had checked on a bag of golf clubs as part of her luggage. do the emo's golf?
12. i'm a catch; people just don't realize that yet.
13. we move in less than a week. and i'm excited for pancake baking in my underwear.
1. i think i've outgrown my family. it's fine talking to them on the phone, but in real life i question how i ever grew up in this family. from the way they talk to the way they eat, and especially the music they listen to, it all drove me crazy today. no one is like me. i bear no striking resemblance to anyone in my nuclear family. i have much better taste in music than anyone. (the ride home from the airport consisted of heavy rock and country.) i whipped out my ipod as soon as the wheels started rolling.
2. my family really isn't a family anymore. my sister lives an hour away; i'm five and half hours away. my brother will continue to leech of my mother for who knows how long. i can count the number of times we are all together in a year (most likely) on my two hands. is that weird? i think that's weird. i feel like i'm going to be the only child with a real career. and as a result, i feel like i'll become even more of an outsider.
3. my sister is moving in with her boyfriend this weekend. he's smitten with her; her equally so with him. my family approves. he's a nice guy. i'm 90% sure that they'll get married at some point down the road. and here i am: still single. i'm fine with that i guess. but it'll be weird when the day comes that i'm attending my sister's wedding. i don't see myself marrying for at least another decade, if not longer.
4. my dad is getting remarried this weekend...to a woman i don't really know all that well. i guess i have excuses-- i've been out of state and abroad the entirety of their relationship. she's a nice enough lady and i approve. but it's kind of weird, isn't it? i hardly know my stepmom.
5. stefanie and i saw on old yearbook staff member tonight. she greeted stefanie with a warm smile and a salutation. i got nothin'. it was always a personal goal of mine to say hi to people after high school. for the most part i've been pretty good about it. but most times people don't say hi to me. people think it's because i've changed a lot. that might be the case, but part of me is afraid that i'm not approachable. i was nice in high school! we'll go with the dramatic weight loss.
6. friends are great. i saw stefanie tonight for the first time in eleven months...and it was like we just saw each other a couple weeks ago. so much to catch up on. she's leaving for illinois tomorrow morning and i won't see her again until a group visit sometime this fall. but that is what true friendship is all about.
7. my brother apparently takes it upon himself to house his friends in my room. i will admit, it makes sense since i have two beds. but i also have my belongings in here. and private stuff that i don't want people touching. i wouldn't go through his room if he moved out of the house; i don't smoke pot.
8. i know i'll be a good designer. i just know it.
9. i can't live anywhere smaller than the Twin Cities. i never had the mindset of staying there after college, but now that i've been here for the summer i adore mpls and could easily see myself staying there for a while...assuming that i find a good job. otherwise i'll probably move out to the east coast.
10. on my flight home this afternoon i ended up sitting next to some guys from an investment firm in phoenix. and they were the most annoying "men" i have ever seen; basically 35-year old frat boys. what is their appeal? they're annoying and irresponsible, yet women desire them? i don't get it. what about tall, slim graphic designer men? we're sexy too, damn it.
11. i saw the most emo chick ever on my flight today. dyed red hair with black tips. gallons of mascara on. a ripped shirt with skulls and cross bones. the standard lip ring and a tube of brown lip balm. (brown? is that emo?) what struck me as odd was the fact that she had checked on a bag of golf clubs as part of her luggage. do the emo's golf?
12. i'm a catch; people just don't realize that yet.
13. we move in less than a week. and i'm excited for pancake baking in my underwear.
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- I'm Michael
- From Minneapolis, Minnesota, United States
- laughter makes the world go round. i'm studying graphic design at the University of Minnesota and enjoying (nearly) every minute of it...just not the homework.
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it's good to think about things in life. realize, you are different than the rest of your family, but in a great way. families grow apart, people get married. saying 'hi' to high school peers is overrated (remember, we're moving on to bigger and better things, while most of them live in wisconsin and continue to adore the homelife of sheboygan). you will be an amazing graphic designer. you don't need to live anywhere smaller than the twin cities because you will be doing great things that only people in big cities do. 35-year-old frat boy investment firm men are NOT desirable. slim graphic designer men are sexy. apparently, emos golf. you are a catch. and i too am excited for pancake baking in our underwear. what a life.